September 18, 2006 To wake up to find that the life that was once beautiful has gone away and everything I want only appears in dreams. So near yet so far. If I could sleep forever, I would. If I could turn back time to make everything right, I would.
I don't think I'm ever gonna be ready for the exams. I just feel like stopping all classes and not signing up for them. After all, it's no longer my wants and just my mum's "complete what you started with" theory. I think I'm in the wrong course. I think I'm in the wrong life. I think I'm in the wrong era. I think I'm n the wrong spirit. I think I'm in the wrong mood. I think I don't know what I'm doing.
What the fuck have I done to deserve all this shit? All these frustrations just attach themselves to me like magnet. How the hell do I get rid of them just like that? Please attract me to deep down below, big magnetic field.